Make it better. Beat yourself up about it.
How’s that working for you?
I was a little anxious about not posting something this week. Deeply disappointed in myself. I felt like I was letting someone out there down. Making them feel like they couldn’t rely on me, ever again!
I have completed my first little downloadable pdf for readers to enjoy for free and hopefully, I would help a little and make a tiny difference to someone’s life. I was ready, but the forces of nature were not. Technical difficulties paused my idea and I am hoping to get it to you in next week. Even writing that sentence feels embarrassing because I felt I failed somehow.
Be your best self
It means you shouldn’t compare your personal best with others triumphs, only your own.
You know at times when your mind is set on something and it almost happens but doesn’t? Your heart is just squashed so much you can feel yourself deflating? So much that you feel like nothing else will be good enough now? I had this feeling when I could not post my article I wanted to this week. This squashing feeling nearly got me not posting anything else at all. And then the soundtrack from Frozen plays in the background. Oh no, wait! It’s my little niece singing “Let it go”.
You don’t have to perfect to be amazing. – Anonymous
In my mind posting weekly strangely meant from Monday to Friday. I realised I had been conditioned to think that way over my entire life. That all things meant to contribute to society only took place during these days and at certain times. I reminded myself that I was not doing this solely to check my web analytics. Don’t get me wrong though. I do want more readers. Afterall, more readers, more people I can help! I am doing this because I want to share my experience with life and depression and anxiety. I reminded myself that Sunday is indeed part of the week. I reminded myself that depression and anxiety do not stop on a Friday at 6:30pm and starts at 6:30am on Monday morning. It is part of everyday life and that includes Saturdays and Sundays.
Learn from life’s lessons
This week taught me to give myself a break. Yes, I did not get to upload my downloadable pdf, but in doing so I learnt another life lesson. To be kind to me. And, next week will be another chance for me to get it out.
When plans don’t go as planned don’t beat yourself up about it. Instead, try to see the benefit of what went wrong. Mistakes and unfortunate events are lessons to learn from, not punishment.
Too many people miss the silver lining because they’re expecting gold. – Arthur Yorinks